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 So both because it sounded fun and because I wanted to get more used to using DW, I signed up for a yearly writing pledge via [community profile] getyourwordsout , just the "light" 75k to start out, and it's made me realize just how much I've missed creative writing. I took some classes in undergrad and have written short stuff on and off, but had never had a lot of time to do it otherwise since I was in...middle school, probably? I remember writing constantly back then, fanfic and RPG forums were my life.

I'm already on my way to surpassing my goal for January, and loving it. It took me a few days to get into the rhythm of it, but now I really look forward to my daily writing time a week in - I even find myself writing during my breaks at work, ha. It's just so nice to rediscover something that used to bring me so much joy and still get so much out of it. I didn't know how much I missed telling stories until I started telling them again.

The novel I'm working on is at the moment provisionally named Whale Fall and involves a young trans person leaving home to live with his queer uncles (one of whom turns out to be a Norse personal/protector spirit) on the Oregon coast. I'm also planning some appearances by Rán, goddess of the drowned dead, and a lot of nerdy queer history stuff. I'll likely put up some character profiles here once I get my mind wrapped around everyone a little more.

It's also nice to have a project that is all my own; I probably would have enjoyed writing my thesis a lot more minus the pressure of grad school, lol.
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I've saved many of my most important tumblr posts in private archival posts here. Fittingly, most of them have been about my transition and coming out process. This has, as an added benefit, forced me to go back and revisit my updates on this, all the way back to 2011 when I was still in high school and all but entirely closeted. 

It's been interesting and a bit disorienting to read about how I saw myself and the world that long ago - it feels like I'm reading the experiences of a different person, and in a lot of ways I am. I had no idea how much I'd change in that time, how much I'd grow and how much more comfortable I'd become with myself. For all tumblr's problems, it definitely had a role to play in helping me become confidently queer and trans. For all the bombardment of toxicity, there has also been a bombardment of validation, even if at times it felt hollow.

At the same time, I'm excited to explore new formats; here (which has been a trip down memory lane), Pillowfort (jury's still out), Twitter/Mastodon. There are things I enjoy about tumblr, but there are also reasons I'm happy its day in the sun is coming to an end. I never felt super comfortable actively blogging somewhere with so little privacy, where people, some very unpleasant, could take my words, posts, and content and remix and add to them endlessly.

I guess the moral of this story is that with years of experience as a trans person and years moving between platforms, I've come to value the idea that it's good to embrace change, however much we can. Nothing is forever, and while there's sadness to that, it also means there will always be new beginnings. I'm interested to see where this new beginning takes us.

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